Loneliness had no meaning
Until I fell in love with you;
Growing closer truly felt
Like you were saying that we’re through.

Your touch, devoid of feeling,
Was anesthesia to my soul.
You numbed me with your passion
Till misery consumed me whole.

Oh! the tumultuous absence
Of sincerity in your kiss
Poisoned the sacred mem’ry.
You suffocated me in bliss.

My one desire to spoil you;
Your own desires you did not know.
You lied and strung me along
Instead of letting my corpse go.

For I was dead in your arms,
And being dead, I did not know.
My heart I still thought beating,
Though you had stilled it long ago.

Your love a purgatory
Where I waited and offered prayer.
Your fears kept me in limbo;
Your cold disdain still keeps me there.

Immature? Yes, we both were;
I trusted you and love-naive!
You could not communicate;
You could not let your soul believe

Someone genuinely loved you,
Cared only for your happiness,
Was patient with your failings,
Supported you to reach success.

Perfect you named me often;
I accepted you as you are.
I loved your imperfections
And the strength of your inner star.

I never sought to change you.
Do I deceive myself in this?
I wanted you to open
Your soul up to feel love’s full bliss.

Perfect was not good enough
For you at the end of the day.
All that I am perfect for
Is being idly pushed away.

You could not handle feeling;
Warm passions made you feel afraid.
The moments we connected
You’d turn dispassionate and staid.

When first you said you loved me,
Something soured in your heart.
Perchance it was needing me
That made you feel that we should part.

How many times you told me
There was nothing for us to share!
Then, begged me back while wounded,
Professing now you truly care!

How could I not believe you;
You whispered to my soul its dreams?
Distance was all I ever got back,
For you’d hide yourself more, it seems.

The pearls of precious moments–
The blood diamonds of our romance–
Taint my bitter certainty
That our love never had a chance.